This is the first year since I was 4 that I haven’t had my life dictated, structured and given purpose by education. I had already struggled in the autumn, when I didn’t have a job or any sort of structure, to find a purpose which centred on me. I really struggled, and do struggle to find my interests as motivating and structuring as the establishment I am no longer part of (education) but which has been in my life longer than anyone save my family.
Had I not already become aware of this struggle and tackled it in some ways, I know I would be finding this lockdown even harder. As it is I am still struggling to find the motivation to do things for myself, and in some ways this website and blog is my response to that, and an escape from having to.
Everyone is going to be coping very differently, and there is no right or wrong way. We live in a society which only views certain types of productivity as truly productive and if the statistics on depression, loneliness and other mental health problems are correct, (1 in 4 people experience a mental health problem each year), then it is very clear this isn’t working.
I hope you enjoy exploring mine and Ellie’s thoughts (hers are probably more cohesive than mine), but if you don’t, hey, it’s helped me and that’s all that matters!